There is a pervasive and dangerous image in our culture that blessings come in the form of: health, fame, awards, wealth, huge houses, fancy cars, nice clothes, etc... A first class life, rather than a 'coach' existence. But is that really a blessed life? What if blessings arrive in the midst of a storm, laughter through tears, or simply a downfall of tears? What if blessings arrive in the midst of pain, sickness, danger, loss, sorrow, suffering?

Laura Story has a beautiful and amazing song called Blessings. If you haven't seen the video or heard the son, click on the link.

In my own life, the days of comfort have not produced gratitude as much as the dark, lonely moments. The times when I have felt 'blessed' according to our culture's standards have not made me feel closer to God. But the days of loss and pain, when my husband lost his job, when my father passed away, those nights of loneliness when I was single, weeks and months of fear for my unborn child, those painful times produced a deep need in me, which drew me close to the only One who could help--God. It was in the midst of the storms of life when I felt His peace, not the peace this world provides through plenty.



Earlier this month, once again I found myself in the midst of a personal trial. We were on vacation in France, and my husband became very ill. If you're my Facebook friend, then you probably followed along and prayed for us, and we so appreciated every prayer! He was admitted to a hospital in a small town in France, where few spoke English, and I spoke little French. The rest of my family returned home, but my husband and I were in France, feeling alone and uncertain. Yet, that is where we experienced so many blessings: the comfort and peace that only comes from God, the kindness of strangers, the love and prayers from so many family and friends. It was actually a sweet time, that week spent in Vernon, France, and I am grateful to our God who walked beside us and carried us through that fear; I am grateful to the strangers who offered help; I am grateful to friends and family who reached out from thousands of miles away to pray and to help. Oh the blessings we experienced!



I hope this post doesn't make you think I don't have a relationship with Jesus Christ during good times, because I definitely do! But that relationship goes to a whole new level during difficult times. "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid." John 14: 26-28 Have you experienced similar blessings? What does the word 'blessings' mean to you?

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This has been an odd season. Honestly, I usually enjoy Thanksgiving through Christmas, even the hustle and bustle as too many things make their way onto my to-do list. The fact is, I usually go nuts about Christmas. It is my favorite time of the year. But this year, well…so many things have happened, painful things, that at first I thought there is no way I can enjoy Christmas.

It’s been a reminder that Christmas isn’t always a happy time for folks. Often the loss of a loved one or simply the reminder of a loved one who has long since passed brings memories that are painful. Many, many years ago, my beloved grandmother died on Thanksgiving morning. Often that day brings back sad memories. Often there is a loss of a job that makes the holidays difficult. Several years ago my husband was laid off two weeks before Christmas. It was the same day my beloved dog died. And the same day I received a rejection on a manuscript. Then for others, they may be experiencing an estrangement from family and their heart is hurting. I, too, have felt this. I don’t know your personal struggles, but the painful events over the past few weeks have reminded me that folks are hurting this time of year.

Why is Christmas so painful more so than other holidays throughout the year? No other holiday makes the joy feel larger and the sorrow greater. I believe it’s a spiritual battle. Christmas no matter what others may say is about celebrating the birth of a baby boy sent from our heavenly Father to save the world from sin. The day is meant to bring joy and peace. Yet, so often family strife may create the exact opposite. Or peace of mind may elude us because of sorrow. I believe the Evil One, Satan, wants to steal our joy, our peace, our good will.

Whatever your circumstances are this year, don’t let the Evil One steal your joy. Joy isn’t determined by circumstance. “And my soul shall be joyful in the Lord, it shall rejoice in his salvation.” Psalm 38: 9 No matter what we are experiencing, we can still rejoice at the birth of our savior, the Lord Jesus Christ, and the salvation He has given us.

So this Christmas season, lift your eyes off your circumstances, off your weariness, off your sorrow, off your anger, and look up. Look toward the one who came to set us free from sin. The one who can bind up our wounds. The one who can heal broken relationships and marriages. The one who can restore us. The one who offers us grace. Look to the Son of the Living God. Emmanuel-God with us. The Resurrection and the Life. The Great I Am. The Word. The Alpha and the Omega. The Savior of the World. The Messiah. The Lamb of God. Our High Priest. Our Redeemer. King of kings. Lord of lords. The Prince of Peace.

Blessings to you and merry Christmas!

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"Pain."
That was Clubber's response in the Rocky III movie when asked, "What's your prediction?"
"Pain."
It's a great moment of self-indulgent over-confidence by Rocky's nemesis.
And it's probably something the Evil One says in his prediction of what he desires in our life. And since we live in a fallen world, we're pretty much guaranteed some pain in life.
So the question isn't IF we'll have pain, the question is HOW will we respond to it?

Pain comes in so many forms. There is physical, emotional, psychological. You've probably experienced your share. I've experienced mine as well. Recently, I was dealt a heavy blow. Maybe you've been knocked to your knees too. Maybe you're grabbing onto the ropes, like Rocky, trying to catch your breath, trying to pull yourself back up. Maybe you're asking God, "Why?" Maybe you're still in shock and flat out on the floor. Maybe you feel like Goliath just won. Maybe you feel as if you've been cast in the lion's den and no angel has come to shut the lion's mouth. Or maybe you've been tossed into a fiery furnace. Maybe you've been dealt a real knock-out. Whatever the source of your pain, your heart is aching.

I know that pain. You do too. But here's what I also know, even as I feel the repercussions of a blow resonating through my entire heart....

"So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded.
You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.
For in just a very little while,
"He who is coming will come and will not delay.
But my righteous one will live by faith.
And if he shrinks back,
I will not be pleased with him."
But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved. Hebrews 10:35-39

To me, God is saying, 'Hang in there! Persevere! Don't give up! Jesus is coming! Don't shrink back. Don't back down. We are His children! We are righteous because of the blood of Christ. Believe."

What is He saying to you?

Labels: depression, emotional distress, Pain, suffering